Pray without ceasing

Prayer has always confused me a little bit. Especially cooperate prayer. Did my prayer sound too selfish? Am I being to American/and praying for comfort Instead of praying for lives to come to know Jesus? Should I just always pray that His will be done. Period. That way I don't have to worry about if I prayed for the right thing or not...
Well right now im in a state of constent prayer in my personal life and I can't tell you the Joy and Peace it is giving me. constant conversations with my Father about His goodness. So when I thought about posting something about asking for prayer it surprised me when I hesitsted so. Should I ask for what I want? Should I ask that Gods will be done? Does the first sound too greedy? Does the second sound like a lack of trust that it could happen?
Well after some early morning thoughts, this is what I came up with: God is good. He loves his children. He loves blessing us when our hearts are in line with his Will. His will is for many to come to the saving knowledge of him, and his desire is to have a relationship with me and use us For his will. I do want Gods will to be done. I want His will, and Im pleading with him to help Joel dominate this test.
Weve sought Gods will more than ever the last three years of our lives. And we believe with gusto that God called our little family to VA to learn more about himself, to walk closer with Him and for my husband to capitalize on a skill set Gid equipped him with to make him excell at being an incredible attorney.
And now, after the physical and emotional 3 yr journey of a life time we can say we went to VA, got closer to Jesus and my husband dominated law school..  We've sought him in each decision we've come to and its brought us here. To the MN Bar. And as I sit here 3 hours before Joel answers the first question on this insane test. I want to boldly pray that God completes this journey for us. That he rewards Joel for obeying this calling and that He finishes this training so He can use his degree for His glory.
So please pray with me. From 8:30-4:30 today and tomorrow. Pray that Joel finds Joy in this part of the journey. Pray that he is confident and at peace. And pray that he destroys this test with excellence!

4 month old Bear Cub

Friends, This little man is so incredible. He's somehow four months & I love him so much.

Silas David/Si/Bear...he has been such a gift to us. A perfect distraction from the Bar. And an easy distraction at that.  

Lately life is even more abnormal for the Lewicki's, and one might think that adding a newborn to the mix would be troublesome. But really quite the opposite. He's been such a joy to me as I navigate life while Joel studies.  His smile stops me dead in my tracks. every. time. He giggles lots and just loves life!

Despite my efforts, he's a light sleeper during naps, and if I really want/need him to take a good nap, I just put him in his swing.  He sleeps much longer in there vs the bassinet.  His first three months I laid him down awake for his nap, but this last month we had many disruptions in his schedule (4th of july festivities, out of town visitors etc etc) so sometimes I pat him to sleep, sometimes I nurse him, and lots of times I just use the swing.  we have more traveling in August so I don't have plans to regulate his naps anytime soon. I usually just make sure he goes down about 1 hr and 15 minutes after I feed him.  Its working pretty well so far!

Did I mention he smiles ALL the time and has started giggling more and more. He's found his hands and has one tooth threatening to pop through. lil tooth bud=crazy drool. and his hands are in his mouth quite a bit. He usually takes 2 long naps and one or two short naps a day. The last two months he would go to bed around 8:30 and sleep until 7:00. But I think we may be switching to an earlier bed time.  He doesn't take an evening nap well, and 7-8 is a sad time for him when he's so tired.  So last night I put him to bed around 7:30, but then had to feed him around 4:30am. He went back to bed untill 7:15am and I wouldn't mind this set up except it is VERY hard for me to go back to sleep at 4:45.  (imagine Anna when she declares, "The suns awake so I'm awake!") but really I have no complaints. It's been pretty smooth sailing.

He likes to be "surprised" if he sees it coming(peek a boo and such), and he LOVES being tickled. He does like momma A LOT, but he's not nearly as attached as Violet was.  Thank goodness. He's talking more and has no interest in rolling over. He loves to be swaddled for sleep and I'm pretty sure its going to stunt his motor skill development...and I'm really ok with that! (no rolling means no crawling which means no baby proofing!)

Hes also great at traveling although I think the super easy days are almost over. His awake time is longer and longer and his eye hand coordination isn't great enough to enjoy toys much. He hasn't cried too much in the car yet, but I just sense he's about to make us more aware he's around!

Eating goes pretty well for this lil Bear, but he's anything but regular. He sometimes eats and eats and eats, but most times after nursing 5 minutes on one side, he just stops and has the biggest open mouth smile.  I'll shove myself in to try to get his belly fuller in hopes of a great nap time, but it just makes him giggle and its pure mockery of momma by an infant!  if it weren't scandalous I'd take a video. Sadly, not being regular has meant mastitis for me a couple times, but I can usually detect the onset pretty well, (the flu like feeling and body pain/leg aches) and have been able to treat it without medication!

Well thats about it for our Silas. He eats. He sleeps. He smiles. The end.

Bnjmn 4 months/18+ lbs

Violet 4 months/14 lbs

Silas 4 months/16 lbs

first hair cut